A couple days ago the Lord Jesus asked me a very important question. He asked me if I am willing to travel alone on this journey of healing. My heart was shattered when He asked that question. That was the last thing I wanted to do...travel alone.
I had an opportunity to visit with my In-Laws. They live in the country, and they have beautiful acreage. When I got there...I felt compel to go on a hike. I took my music with me, and I began to pray. I was asking the Lord what He was doing."Why now?" "Are you going to bring me more pain?" "Are sending me into a valley?" As I walked the ground was headed into a valley. As I stood at the top, I began to cry to God,"Is this what you want for me to go into a dark place?" I stared hard at the valley below me. I said to the Lord, "I don't understand...I know you want me to hear your voice above all others." "Why do it this way?" He then told me to go down into that physical valley, and while I'm doing that sing, and worship Him.
I did. I walked down that steep hillside, and sang my heart out. When I got to the bottom. I fell on my face, before God. I was overwhelmed. He said to me,"Arise, my child, It's time I let you walk on your own." "I've been carrying you all this time, because you could not walk." "Now you can." "I'm for you!" "When you need me...I'm only a breath away." "Listen for my Voice of Truth."
There I was standing at the bottom of this valley...tears running down my face. I asked the Lord, "Where do I go now?" He directed me to the steepest place you could climb from where I was. So I headed to climb this steep hill...as I climbed...the Lord Jesus sweetly said to me, "My Beloved, you're headed to higher ground." As I continued, I began to get winded, and tired. All the while the song, "My Beloved" by Kari Jobe was playing in my ears. The Lord told me I am going to get weary on the way to higher ground, but He would give me rest and restore my soul. I stopped moving, because I became so weak. Again the Lord Jesus told me it's okay to stop, just don't go back.
When I got to the top, it was breathtaking! Jesus and I were still having this conversation. I asked Him, "Where do I go now?" I came to a narrow path, it had lots of brush sticking up. I said, "Not this way Jesus...there are too many sticks in the way." You guessed it...this is way He wanted me to go. He wanted me to run! He had me listen to the song, "Keep Running On" by Kara Leinonen. So I ran through this brush covered path listening to this song, At the end of the path, I stopped and screamed, "I give up!" "I give up following religion and the fear of man!" "I die to everything I have ever been taught...I'm just going to follow you, Jesus!" "Make Your Voice so loud that I hear no other!"
At that moment, a warmth came over me. The feeling you get when you receive a hug from someone you know loves you a lot. I stood there for awhile, and said nothing. Then the Lord said to me, "Go a little further, I have something else I want to tell you." So I did, and there was a table and chairs setting in the middle of nowhere! I laughed and told the Lord Jesus, "Are you kidding me?" I sat down, and the Lord Jesus began to tell me that He loves me very much! That I'm very important to Him! He told me this little journey I took with Him today was a just picture of my journey with Him to higher ground. I told Him there that I trust Him. That I believe He knows what is best path for me to take, even if humanly speaking I have to do it alone.
Has the Lord ever asked you to do something that you had no idea how you would ever do it? Remember you are SO WORTH IT to Jesus! Love to hear your thoughts.