You Are Here!

I am overwhelmed with the goodness of God toward me! I stand here looking back over the last seven months, and I am just in awe over what the Lord has done for me! Things that I thought would never happen for me have in a wonderful way! I just want to praise Jesus today! 


I've gone from no hope to great hope! I thought I was worthless, and Jesus has showed me that I am of great worth! Jesus has taught me that I matter! He has shown me in many ways that I am adored by Him! He loves me! Wow! He has given me a reason to live! 


His Grace is so amazing! How many times I have felt His loving arms around me, when I was going through some of my darkest nights. To know He has written down all my tears and put them in bottle Psalms 56. I know it is a journey that I am on, but I can't help but praise Him for what He's done...and where He has brought me from! The Psalmist said, "He brought me up also out of an horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, and established my goings. And he hath put a new song in my mouth, even praise unto our God: many shall see it, and fear , and shall trust in the LORD." Psalms 40:2-3 (emphasis mine)


Dear Reader, maybe you feel God has not given you a fair shake. I felt that way, but an amazing thing happened when I asked Jesus for His truth. He showed me that He is not a man that He should lie. He can be trusted! He loves you so much! He wants to show you today!  I would love to hear some of your stories of what Jesus has done for you! Let's praise Him together! Remember you are Worth it!

Faith is the Time Machine

What do you do when you suffer loss? When things seem they will never change? When you think the pain will never end? I know I have asked myself. "Is it worth it?" "Is God going to come through for me?" "Can I trust Him?"

Recently, the Lord had me reread a book that I have read many times. It talks about a woman that takes her journey with the Shepherd to the High Places. While reading I felt as if I were the character in this story. One of the things that stuck out to me was her FAITH and SURRENDER to the Shepherd.

Her heart longed to be LOVED. I know this longing very well. When I began my journey to healing...the thing I desired the most was to be loved and accepted. Slowly the Lord showed me that walls stood between Him and I, and the love I so desired.

It is a painful process...removing walls of self protection. Being vulnerable is a scary thing to me. To remove the mask, and let all see. My heart cries for fellowship and acceptance, but I can't have it unless the walls are down.

When I started to remove the walls things started to change! You see I have been told many times that I would be loved and accepted. I would have the fellowship my heart desires. I could not see it, but I had to have faith that God would do that for me. Faith is the time machine!

Yesterday, visiting with my family for Thanksgiving a miracle took place! With the walls of self protection down...I felt I actually belonged to my family. I fit! I did not need to hide or perform! For those who did not know this I'm adopted. So I always felt that I was a misfit. That I had to perform to be accepted and loved. Not yesterday!

I was just glowing and overjoyed to know in my heart that God had fulfilled His promise to me...that I would be loved and accepted! I would have fellowship! I do! I have it just like He said!

Dear Reader, hold on to the promise that Jesus has made to you! He is not a man that He should lie. Have faith! It is coming! Remember, you are Worth It!

On My Way To Higher Ground

A couple days ago the Lord Jesus asked me a very important question. He asked me if I am willing to travel alone on this journey of healing. My heart was shattered when He asked that question. That was the last thing I wanted to do...travel alone.

I had an opportunity to visit with my In-Laws. They live in the country, and they have beautiful acreage. When I got there...I felt compel to go on a hike. I took my music with me, and I began to pray. I was asking the Lord what He was doing."Why now?" "Are you going to bring me more pain?" "Are sending me into a valley?" As I walked the ground was headed into a valley. As I stood at the top, I began to cry to God,"Is this what you want for me to go into a dark place?" I stared hard at the valley below me. I said to the Lord, "I don't understand...I know you want me to hear your voice above all others." "Why do it this way?" He then told me to go down into that physical valley, and while I'm doing that sing, and worship Him.

I did. I walked down that steep hillside, and sang my heart out. When I got to the bottom. I fell on my face, before God. I was overwhelmed. He said to me,"Arise, my child, It's time I let you walk on your own." "I've been carrying you all this time, because you could not walk." "Now you can." "I'm for you!" "When you need me...I'm only a breath away." "Listen for my Voice of Truth."

There I was standing at the bottom of this valley...tears running down my face. I asked the Lord, "Where do I go now?" He directed me to the steepest place you could climb from where I was. So I headed to climb this steep hill...as I climbed...the Lord Jesus sweetly said to me, "My Beloved, you're headed to higher ground." As I continued, I began to get winded, and tired. All the while the song, "My Beloved" by Kari Jobe was playing in my ears. The Lord told me I am going to get weary on the way to higher ground, but He would give me rest and restore my soul. I stopped moving, because I became so weak. Again the Lord Jesus told me it's okay to stop, just don't go back.

When I got to the top, it was breathtaking! Jesus and I were still having this conversation. I asked Him, "Where do I go now?" I came to a narrow path, it had lots of brush sticking up. I said, "Not this way Jesus...there are too many sticks in the way." You guessed it...this is way He wanted me to go. He wanted me to run! He had me listen to the song, "Keep Running On" by Kara Leinonen. So I ran through this brush covered path listening to this song,  At the end of the path, I stopped and screamed, "I give up!" "I give up following religion and the fear of man!" "I die to everything I have ever been taught...I'm just going to follow you, Jesus!" "Make Your Voice so loud that I hear no other!"

At that moment, a warmth came over me. The feeling you get when you receive a hug from someone you know loves you a lot. I stood there for awhile, and said nothing. Then the Lord said to me, "Go a little further, I have something else I want to tell you."  So I did, and there was a table and chairs setting in the middle of nowhere! I laughed and told the Lord Jesus, "Are you kidding me?" I sat down, and the Lord Jesus began to tell me that He loves me very much! That I'm very important to Him! He told me this little journey I took with Him today was a just picture of  my journey with Him to higher ground. I told Him there that I trust Him. That I believe He knows what is best path for me to take, even if humanly speaking I have to do it alone.

 Has the Lord ever asked you to do something that you had no idea how you would ever do it? Remember you are SO WORTH IT to Jesus! Love to hear your thoughts.