Faith is the Time Machine

What do you do when you suffer loss? When things seem they will never change? When you think the pain will never end? I know I have asked myself. "Is it worth it?" "Is God going to come through for me?" "Can I trust Him?"

Recently, the Lord had me reread a book that I have read many times. It talks about a woman that takes her journey with the Shepherd to the High Places. While reading I felt as if I were the character in this story. One of the things that stuck out to me was her FAITH and SURRENDER to the Shepherd.

Her heart longed to be LOVED. I know this longing very well. When I began my journey to healing...the thing I desired the most was to be loved and accepted. Slowly the Lord showed me that walls stood between Him and I, and the love I so desired.

It is a painful process...removing walls of self protection. Being vulnerable is a scary thing to me. To remove the mask, and let all see. My heart cries for fellowship and acceptance, but I can't have it unless the walls are down.

When I started to remove the walls things started to change! You see I have been told many times that I would be loved and accepted. I would have the fellowship my heart desires. I could not see it, but I had to have faith that God would do that for me. Faith is the time machine!

Yesterday, visiting with my family for Thanksgiving a miracle took place! With the walls of self protection down...I felt I actually belonged to my family. I fit! I did not need to hide or perform! For those who did not know this I'm adopted. So I always felt that I was a misfit. That I had to perform to be accepted and loved. Not yesterday!

I was just glowing and overjoyed to know in my heart that God had fulfilled His promise to me...that I would be loved and accepted! I would have fellowship! I do! I have it just like He said!

Dear Reader, hold on to the promise that Jesus has made to you! He is not a man that He should lie. Have faith! It is coming! Remember, you are Worth It!